I Always Mess Up

I don't try to mess things up, but in the end, I do anyways. I really like him and i'm just so self conscious that I always feel the need to leave and talk to someone else. It just really annoys me because he's such a sweet guy and I tell him everything. We stay up and talk late every weekend and during the summer, almost every night. I just feel like I make him feel awkward and that I should just leave. Like, I really don't know what to do. Gosh, I just hate that he's such a nice guy and he's alwayssss helping me out even when it's super late and he's really tired. He's always there. I just wish I would be more confident in myself and not worry about what people think of me. I'm always trying to please others and worrying about what the world will think of me, when really all that matters is if i'm happy with myself. This is definitely something I should pray about. Man, blogging really does help with stress. Thank you whoever invented it.